They pour out to paper, it's all for you.

Another weekend coming to a close. School will be the most pointless thing ever this week. 2 and 1/2 days of movie watching. Oh wait, not in biology of course though, cause Mrs. Lowe doesn't waste time. This weekend has been a pretty good one. On Friday I came home and took a much needed nap. OH SHIT. I had a detention to serve Friday. And I forgot about it. What do they do if you forget about your detentions? Oh well. John came and got me after work and we met Jimmy Greg Dominica Seth and some others at Wendy's. I haven't seen a lot of them in so long. Oh and I saw some of my TV class guys too. :) We hung out at Wendy's for a while but went back to Jimmy's. And watched Amityville Horror and Chris came over too, I haven't seen all these people in forever. And they wanted me to do a shot of 151 so I did. I regretted that when John dropped me off at home though haha. So when I couldn't get to sleep, I just called John and talked to everyone at Jimmy's. I thought everything was hilarious. Especially Biggs' tropical bird noise. So I finally got to sleep and woke up at 5 in the morning and felt EXTREMELY awake. So I just ran around the house and looked at random Chuck Norris facts. Then eventually it become morning, hah. I got my hair cut Saturday, shorter now, like I wanted it the first time. I like it even better. And it takes so much less time to do. I worked 5-8 and had some sweet conversations about peacocks with our old delivery guy and goofed off with Ruben and Monroe. They call me Emilia and tell me chupas cause they think it's funny. John and I .. umm what did we do. Oh I started to fall asleep in his car so we went to Denny's and met some people and I got coffee which helped slightly. Then we went over Greg's and watched the Truman show with him Bryan and Dominica. Lots of hanging out this weekend. Um.. oh, also.. I managed to write a song Friday. Lyrics in English class, and the music in study hall. And I played it for my Dad cause I wanted his opinion and I looked up at him and he started crying. I think that's the best compliment I could've gotten from my Dad cause he doesn't cry. Good weekend. Now I have to go to my cousin Kevin's birthday and later on it better be a new Family Guy.

Weeee Rocket Summer. (Plus Hellogoodbye, Hit the Lights and David Melillo) at the Grog Shop yesterday night. It was especially fun cause I was with Jenny, John, Biggs (who I haven't seen in like 5 years) and Kayla. It was a cold walk there but it was worth it. Plus we passed Derbyshire and Little Germany on the way. And a kid with demon eyes. But I saw John O'Conner there which was cool cause I've only talked to him VIA Instan Messenger. Oh and Adub too. David Melillo was first and Jenny took a picture of the bassist that made him want to end his life. They were good and so was Hit the Lights who are from Lima so they felt at home. They were Fall Out Boy-ish though. But I liked them. And people were really into them. BUT NEXT was the one I was really looking forward to. Bryce (yeah we're on a first name basis) walked right by me to get on stage. Eee. Mad props to John for dealing well with my groupie-ness. He played Story, Cross My Heart, Skies So Blue, Around the Clock andddd Brat Pack and I think one more. But it was very exciting. He went from keyboard to guitar to drums to everything. Hellgoodbye came next but I was dying of thirst so I got water and thennn we got to see Bryce Avery. I got him to sign my shirt and we talked and he told me to stop by later. Just kidding. But he did sign my shirt. And gave me a hug. And he was sweaty. I had Bryce sweat on my hands. Then Hellogoodbye was sweet cause they played their 2 new songs and started a dance party. Then we got lost-ish on the way home but some black men helped a brotha out and we got back. Ahhh fun night. And I love John Sacharski, cause he made it even better.

Soldiers marching up and down my street
Chain me from the gifts you gave to me
They don't want me seeing you this time of night
But I can't imagine doing this alone
My bedroom has the scent of your hair and your scarf
And there's no way I'll keep quiet this evening
Making my move I avoid the creaks
On the wood where the floorboards finally became weak
And I know this house like the back of my hand
And I hope that tonight it will bring us together again
I'm sneaking outside my back door
Just to see the smile your face held before
Before these months brought such wear to our hands
It seems rough seas will last and we'll never get back to land
But just when it's time to give up my hope
Tall trees apear and a hand with a rope
The hand we thought would betray us all along
Has finally given up and joined us in our song
All the soliders will be on our side
All the soldiers are turning to our side
You deserve a better life than this
And all this captain can do is reward you with a kiss
But sometimes it doesn't seem to be enough
And this is only when the seas get too rough
But we discuss our plans and future sails
While gazing out and holding the rail
And it now becomes the most romantic of tales
And I now grab your hand as your hair is blown by the gail
Tonight no soldiers will stop me
No soldiers will discourage me
And if they happen to chain me, if just for a while
I will go into detail about your smile
The one that I don't see often anymore
And they will understand and show me the door
I'll leave them with a feeling of love to cut straight to their core
They'll understand they've not thought right before
And they will trust us
And they will trust

Well so much for the snowday, but overall it was still a great day. And John loved his Dane Cook CD and Coheed DVD :). And we went out for pizza and went over my house for a while because my parents were having their annual Christmas Teachers Party (AKA Drunkfest '05) I just think it's hilarious. This one teacher.. we know her as "crazy eyes" told her husband "Why are you taking so long in the bathroom, fucker?" And my mom's friend Beth was trying to convince her it's ok to let John sleep over. Haha. It was funny. I was actually greeted by a round of applause when I walked in the house. I also got to see Greg, Bryan and Jason which is always fun. Today I was over John's and me and him were watchign the live DVD. I don't think there's much in this world more wonderful than Claudio Sanchez's forearms. And to make them even more orgasmic... just add sweat. That's like all of the DVD right there. Numerous closeups of sweaty Claudio forearms. That's like porn for me. He's a dork. I love him.

Dude pray for a snowday tomorrow. That would mean I'd spend all of my boyfriends birthday with him and that would be so wonderful. He's the only one I know who doesn't mind watching so much Food Network with me. I love Christmas even more because of him. I have to go to the mall and do some Christmas shopping with Dad now.

Got my Hellogoodbye Rocket Summer tickets with Johnny, got my hair cut and love it, saw Biggs at Best Buy, bought Jenny and my mom's Christmas presents, love John, watched the Notebook, am going to stop taking so much medicine, kissed John in the snow, life is good.

Ok ok ok... Kayla says I need to update. What should I talk about. Hm, maybe that Magic Wok never gives me hours and I have like 400 Christmas presents to buy so I need the freakin' money? All because I can't drive. Fuck it. On the bright side... IT SNOWED. Thanksgiving was fun with my family and then with John's.. although I have more fun with John's. For example: my mom and I got in a big fight today because she was yelling and getting all upset that I didn't fold the cereal box in the garbage and she had just emptied it. wow. She actually started yelling. That and the fact I leave my coat outside my bedroom door sometimes. And she wonders why I want to leave so often. I could be being yelled at for smoking pot or something, but no.. I'm yelled at for garbage. Wow. I just wish they knew what a good daughter I am and how bad I could be. Although I did have more fun with John's family, I had a good time playing 25,000 dollar pyramid with the aunts and cousins. I miss that stuff. Caitlin's home from college.. transferring to BW this semester and Jen's in New York City... doing what I want to do. Everyone's growing up. Yesterday we got the tree and good thing John came with us so I could have fun freezing my ass off with someone else. Had another psychiatrist appointment Thursday. She says that my medicine isn't working or something and my parents came in with me and that was sweet cause she tried to blame it on my mom and my mom thinks too much and so now she probably thinks everything is her fault. And she says I'm describing a lot of dissociation or whatever. Basically.. separation from the world. And that's weird, cause that's not me. And she says it might not be side effect of the medicine. SO WHAT AM I TAKING THE MEDICINE FOR THEN!! I don't understand. Anyways... I'm getting my hair cut this Thursday. Short. :) Layers and like.. messy and longer in the front then in the back.. but like shoulder length. Not the stupid scenester haircut. But I'm excited, I need a change.

Fuuuuuck. Being sick is not cool. My throat is like a breeding ground for microscopic demons. And I want to see K-La's play tonight and you know how parents are if you're sick. You didn't go to school tonight so you're not going anywhere else. But I swear if I'm stuck in this house much longer I'm going to light myself on fire. I got up today, ate food then felt like throwing up the food. After that I felt really sweaty and cold so I tried to go to sleep to forget about the feeling. I curled up on the couch with Manny until someone walked by our house and he got up to bark and punctured my ribcage. Well not really, but it felt like it. And then John illegally came over. He didn't have classes today so he came to visit his sick girlfriend. That cheered me up quite a bit. I want it to be night time right now though. I want it to be cold, and I want to have plans and I want to be in the city. But that's not going to happen. Although it is exciting we're already getting our Christmas tree next week. It's that time. Eee. I feel like I should be making more out of this day. But at the same time I feel like doing absolutely nothing and staying in my Mom pajamas forever. Yea, Mom pajamas. They're green and plaid and stupid but comfy. I think I should go shower myself now though. I'm sure by now I'm pretty smelly.

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Well I'm glad I started off with that. John just left and I have nothing to do right now. No work! That's exciting. I should probably get down and dirty with my piano... I haven't done that in a while. Maybe I will after this. Mom and I are getting dinner from that wraps international place next door to the wok. Isn't that like... assisting the enemy or something? Well all I know is.. they get more customers. I don't think I'm allowed to say that. Anyway! Today we extracted DNA from peas. That was sweet. Yea I'm being a science nerd right here but it was fucking cool ok. In English we're doing a research paper on a serial killer and I can't decide on Ted Bundy or Ed Gein. And TV.. I thought it was going to suck it easy again today but we actually got to do some fun stuff. And got Pat Orr to do 40 toe touches in a row. It's not every day you see a fat kid do that.

Ok.. if I didn't make this known to everyone.. I'm NOT WORKING TODAY. I am a happy happy girl. Plus it's finally actually COLD out. More fitting to November than 60's I'd say. Other things that have cheered me up today: John's making me another CD, my hair stayed nice, I found a sweet undershirt to put under my growing t-shirt collection, I got farther in reading "The Wedding", John's old girlfriend left me a comment on myspace and I thought she was mad at me but I think we're cool now and that makes me happy, annddd AND... I'm wearing my new underwear.

Wow. Now everyone's going back to livejournal. Oh well I kind of miss those days anyway. Livejournal was the old myspace. Now myspace makes me want to shoot myself everytime I get on. Which I ironically can't stop doing. (The checking myspace... not the shooting myself) I woke up late today, so I feel off. I don't want to go to school. I don't think I ever do anymore. Sometimes I kid myself and say I'll just run away and won't go anymore but I'd never have the guts to do that. I have so little motivation as a junior, it's sad. I don't know what senior year will be like, let alone college. On the bright side we have 40 fucking TV terms to learn today! I hate when we actually have to learn in that class. M-Low talks forever and I lose concentration like always. Oh, and I've got an english test on Nathanial Hawthorne. Who I'm not the least bit interested in. I got a 99 percent on my Transcendentalist paper, cause I really get into that stuff. As long as every one of Hawthorne's stories involves Puritan related crap I don't really care. House owned last night as usual. If you don't watch that show, I highly recommend it. I've always been kind of obsessed with medical anomolies (?) and stuff but not enough to actually pursue a career in it. So basically I just watch it on TV and I'm fine with that. Haha. Come get Chinese food tonight. I'll be there.


OH ohh PS- I learned how to play Bitches Ain't Shit on the piano yesterday. All by myself. I have to be careful where I show it off though.